The first post of the blog is very exciting and a bit stressful. Stressful in this positive way cause it is just motivating me to write possibly the best content. What is of course very subjective therefore I just focus on writing and you judge it yourself 🙂
Why did I start this blog?
The idea of this page was alive in me for the last couple of years. After my internship in Prague I even made a page and posted 2 articles which never saw a day light. I simply had too many ideas what to write that I couldn’t decide on the vision and the concept Therefore I was just saving my articles in Google drive and all my creative ideas in my mini notebook.
Huge exploration of myself, extensive self and professional development and a fight to tackle my stress
Last two years I worked as an online market manager so I managed a website, wrote lots of content about loans and finances and I was becoming more and more unhappy with what I was doing. The industry was completely not for me so I decided to work on the escape plan. I didn’t want to leave just like that, so I started developing volountary projects which I was passionate about, I took a life coaching course, mindfulness courses , gave private singing classes, kept developing my method of teaching singing and read lots of articles and books about finding what I really want in life. Quite a lot things at once, especially having a full time job right? Yes, it was a lot and it was too much. In my desparation of being unhappy at work I was taking so many courses and projects on me, so I would stop thinking of doing meaningless work daily. It stayed motivated and I still brought good results but stress literally started eating me up. I couldn’t sleep at night, cause I was leading so many projects and I wanted to be the best at it, so I kept thinking about all the things which needed to be done. I got sick every month and the fear of darkness came back… I could still manage but then when I stopped controling my emotions at home I decided to quit. My health and happiness was way more important than writing another landing page about quick loans.
Despite of very hard year, it was one of the most rewarding years ever!
I developed a campaign and organised an event for 250 people promoting Poland in Denmark, I developed a music community integrating internationals, I was promoted at work, completed a life coaching course, organised various concerts, workshops and events with the choir and kept writing articles for this blog! Oh I forgot that I was organising my wedding in a distance! 2018 was definitely a year of the years. Despite of gaining the experiences, what is probably the most important for me is that I realised what I really want to do in life – help others and inspire them! Because I love music and singing music theraphy sounded like a perfect match for me. Therefore I applied to Music Academy and I got accepted! I am starting another Bachelor this autumn! How exciting! That is not all – we are gonna move back to Poland! It is a really big step for us, especially because I have been living abroad 7 years and my husband 14! Despite of the fear of unknown after I analysed my situation, looked into my passions, my values and my life, I realized that this move will truly make me happy!
I don’t want to let the fear of change, unkown and uncertainty make me stay unhappy and not do anything about it. I am responsible for my choices and my happiness.
Therefore I started making a real escape plan (after resigning from my job and getting over the burn out and stress; yes – I really went through a burn out even though I am just 26. )I will tell you more about it in another post. Anyway, this year was calmer but also exciting as the last one.
I was realizing how important is staying healthy mentaly and how it stress affects our physical health. When I was getting better I was enjoying again my wedding preparations and being my positive and active self.
After the wedding we went for our backpacking honeymoon to Asia for almost 5 weeks and it was a trip of our lifes! I will tell you more how big of a test for our marriage it was, how it wa to go without a plan and get adventures on the way. Omg I want to share with you so so much!
To conclude, I want to share with you my experiences of exciting travels, projects, the knowledge which I am gaining about psychology and music therapy, mindful singing plus thousands of thoughts and ideas.
I want to tell you how it is to start something from the scratch and still believe that it’s gonna work out and even keep motivating volunteers to work for your idea.
How it is to go through the burn out, make harsh decisions and at the same lead a happy life and be grateful for every day!
Remember – you are responsible for your actions, reactions and the happiness in your life! Are you aware of that in your daily life?